I'm taking a big step.
I'm venturing into unknown and for me, uncharted territory. I'm joining the ranks of homeschooling moms. Crazy, I know.
Twenty years ago, when my husband decide to join the military I wasn't really exited about those changes in my life. But I've gotten use to the idea. And we do this life pretty well. We have adjusted and we have grown.
Then 15 years ago, when my husband started talking about going to seminary, I was scared. I didn't think I could live up to the demands of a pastor's wife. I didn't think my, then only one child could behave the way a pastor's child should. But we've made it through that hurdle too.
Then when my husband started talking about becoming a Chaplain. I REALLY didn't like that idea. I had known a chaplain's wife who (to me, on the outside) seemed too perfect. She had perky hair, she taught Bible studies, she had perfect children. That wasn't me. I couldn't possibly manage all that. But then I've met other Chaplain's wives who have assured me that the military needs all kinds, and that I would do ok.
And now this. Through much prayer and discussion, we have decided that homeschooling is right for our family. I've said for about 12 years that I wouldn't homeschool. You see, I taught our eldest son at home and I didn't do a very good job. He was difficult. He wouldn't listen to me. I understand now that it wasn't me. The outcome of my first attempts doesn't mean that I doomed to repeat the success or failure this time.
I've since come to realize that Philippians 4:13 is for me. "I can do all things THROUGH Christ who give me strength." It isn't my doing at all. He works through me to make me the person that I am.
That's why this newest change in my life doesn't scare me so much. I know that if God wants me to do this thing, homeschooling, then He will provide the strength I need to get through it.
So, dear reader, all 3 of you, keep praying. I'm going to need all the strength I can get.